Welcome to another day in my life. Today is Friday and we have almost made it through another work week. It has been a very long week for Dab the AIDS Bear and me. I hope you have had a safe and great one.
I have another update on Chipper. If you read my blog yesterday, you know my 16 year old four legged buddy is not doing well. He has had me up almost even night this week. Chipper starts crying any time he can not find me by smell because he is blind and deaf.
Well yesterday was the worst day yet. After another seizure, I thought for a few minutes he had died. Luckily, he started breathing again and was able to move after a few minutes. I am now having to fight with the reality of having to put him down if his seizures and pain continue.
Now I have bad and somewhat good news. The somewhat good news is the doctor thinks the seizures were caused as a side effect of his flea medication called Comfortis. So we are hoping by discontinuing the Comfortis that Chipper will stop having seizure and fits. The bad news is he just had his last treatment on March 1st so it will be at least a couple of week before the level of medication is lowered in his body.
I was speaking with a close friend who reminded me at least Chipper got to live out his life. For those of you who do not know I got Chipper from animal control on the day they were going to put him to sleep. I received a call from a lesbian friend who worked at animal control. She told me the owner had died from AIDS and because Chipper was 10 years old at the time and already blind and deaf, they did not consider him adoptable.
So I drove right over to animal control and adopted him. I knew as soon as I met him that he had a ton of life left in him. Chipper just needed to right person to come into his life who would be able to give him the special attention he needed. Luckily for both of us, that person turned out to be me.
See for as much as I have given Chipper, he has also given to me. When I am home, he is always by my side. No matter where I go in the house, he follows me with his nose.
He does not care if I am having a bad hair day or if I am sick or have an opportunistic infection. Chipper gives me unconditional love and devotion. It is a gift and friendship I treasure.
If his pain and seizures do not improve I will have to make the sacrifice and let his pain end even though it will bring heartache and tears to me. I would never want someone to keep me alive if I was in constant pain and misery so I would never do it to him.
Guess all this sums up what I feel for my little ball of fur. I will never have children of my own so my dogs are my children.
So I will close for now and go spend some more time with Chipper while I can. Remember to spend time today with those you love. You never know when you might not get another chance.
Until we meet again; here's wishing you health, hope, happiness and just enough.
big bear hug,